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I should not be as excited about my birthday coming as I am. I hate when the spotlight is on me...everyone asking "How does it feel to be one year older?" Exactly the same as it did yesterday when I was a year younger...so shut up.

I'm not trying to be bitter though. Turning 18 is definitely going to be a nice change from being considered a child...especially knowing that I'm already twice as "adult" as people twice my age. Well maybe not twice my age, but older.

I think I'm excited because I have someone to share it all with, someone special. For once, I have that.

It's weird. A few years from now I'm going to be faced with some key decisions about my future-to stay here for five years and graduate with a Master's degree...or go elsewhere for a four year degree where I could work right out of college. I'm not going to lie...money is not the issue. I can always find work. I'm really not trying to get ahead of myself, but the things I have now are becoming really important factors about my future choices. I just hope that they continue to be factors when it actually comes to be time to make the choice.

Ugh..could I be any more vague? I feel like getting into specifics would jinx a good thing, so I'm going to leave it at that.

You know what's strange? I've updated for three days in a row on this blog...way less than xanga. Maybe this means I'm starting to find things I can write about...albeit not exactly the genre I was looking for...but this is the start of cracking my writer's block I think. Maybe I'll actually be able to get back to writing poetry *gasp of shock*.